i've tried not to feel, to forget
replace and destroy the feeling what’s left
but this will be remembered
as the circle of hate closes around
i'm in the center with all i've felt
what i've found and lost forever
i can't see through the anger
this pressure behind my eyes plays tricks on my mind
i don't know what is real anymore and what is just an illusion
all this is a heart’s decision to make
harder than a coffin nail
pull it out to scratch love on your arms
tear it out, this bloody shred of flesh from my chest
and put it into your hands
to feel the beat, the heat that stopped since you left
to feel the beat that tortures me with no end
hides in the back of my lungs
in the depths of my guts
till i'm cut and opened up to spit it out
because i can't bear this cross anymore
it has turned upside down
and then i may finally become the one i have to be
despite this disgust, this shame
and then you will love me for what i am
as the circle closes round
Former members of the great band SubRosa return as The Otolith, and their debut LP finds them at the peak of their mighty powers. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 24, 2022